I'm So Sad...

I feel like a part of me died today... :(

Political Propaganda and the Affects on the Ignorant American

What the hell is going on this country? Why are people so quick to jump on the patriotic bandwagon? Ugh, I'm so disgusted I can't write this until I gather my thoughts.... I'll be back.

Busy Day and Deadlines Nearing

Today was a pretty busy day as usual. Work went relatively smoothly and quick. The pressure to finalize some big projects is getting a bit overwhelming. But my team and I are strong and focused and putting in an extra effort to try and complete on time. We are getting really close.

There are several misconceptions in our office about our department which I felt were really being pushed hard during a meeting we had today. In two instances it was implied that I was holding up projects. I asked for clarification and in both instances proved that was not the case. On top of that, it was implied that we are simply "not doing anything". That's just a bunch of crap and those that think that don't have a clue about the complexity of these projects. Finally, everyone always looks to me to work on things because no one else can apparently do them or know how to. This seems to be the norm and I would embrace this more if it weren't for the other two misconceptions. The truth of the matter is, they don't put in an effort and instead take the easy road of "I can't do it". I really dread going into these meetings these days because it sorta feels like an interrogation. I'm finding myself going in with a negative attitude and getting really short with my co-workers. I need to figure out how to change this around and have it work to my advantage. On an up note, I had a talk with my boss a week or so ago about our department and the overall morale of the entire office, telling him how important it is not to reinforce the negativity. He told me today that it will get better. : )

I've been thinking lately about how to cleanse myself of some of the negative energy I've been holding onto these days. The majority of it I know is self induced as well as what I allow to come in. I would like to explore some options on how to achieve this, possibly meditation. I need a way to release all that I hold onto and start focusing more on the positive things in my life, which there are plenty of. I'm typically a positive person, but lately have been holding on to the negative things longer than usual.

It's All Good

I know it's cliche, but I changed my profile pic to a butterfly. I really didn't like the other pic I was using. It was my best attempt at being creative while trying to disguise my real identity. Oh well...

On a final note, I'm going to try and start writing in my blog more. I have been through a lot over the past 6 months and I finally feel I am getting somewhere... I am going to be okay, and I have a new excitement about my life and where I'm headed. Grooviness!

Speaking of progress...

Quiet Time... Time for Reflection and Moving On

It's been so long since I have written in my blog. I have made a lot of progress since my last post. I am now out on my own and taking care of things. Things are going pretty good for me. It has been very quiet, and sometimes lonely in my new environment. But I am enjoying it and a huge weight has been lifted. However, there is still much more to be done and I will work on them one at a time.